Sleep and Trauma
They say that adults who experience sleep disturbances where they can't sleep at night is because of childhood trauma, and because the night is the time when everyone who hurt them were sleeping that it remains embedded deep into the subconscious which prevents that person from being able to sleep at night so they can satisfy the need for calmness and safety that the night brought to them as a child. I guess this explains why I've had trouble sleeping at night from as young as I can remember. Everything from being bullied at school and on the streets to both parents being abusive left imprints on me that no amount of psychological intervention will ever be able to erase. I may be luckier than others that my slower development of emotions and understanding shielded me from becoming a wounded animal cowering in the corner needing medication to control my anxieties, although there are times I feel like curling up into a corner and wishing for tears to carry away all the ...